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2010-07-27T11:05:00.000-04:00

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Weeks 26-27

2009-11-15T15:30:00.002-05:00

So, we've made it to the Third Trimester!!! Holy crap! The girls are doing well. Growing and kicking away. It is still hard to believe that they will be here in about 7 weeks or so. 2 more weeks until my baby shower and I cannot wait! Not only am I excited to see everyone and for everyone to see my belly, but it's an opportunity to get out of the house!! I am going crazy over here. I have read all the magazines and books that friends and family have sent me, daytime TV sucks and there is only so much web surfing a girl can do before you start to go a little crazy. I just want to be out amongst the living.. I am grateful to NOT be in the hospital so I will keep my complaining to a minimum. =)

My SIL, BIL and nieces are coming to town next weekend! Once they get here then I will definitely be going places with them. The only thing is that we have to find activities where I can use either a wheelchair or a motorized scooter thingy. I am allowed to walk just not long distances. I am excited to see them and from what I hear, my nieces are excited to feel the girls kicking around. I hope my girls are willing to "play" with their cousins.

Funny thing happened the other night. I was laying in bed trying to go to sleep and feeling the girls move around and kick. My cat comes by and lays down next to me as he usually does. As he laid there he paw rested on my belly. Next thing I know, Baby A starts kicking where his paw is. I don't know if she felt his paw there or it was a coincidence, but Henry (the cat) pulled his paw away and looked at me like "What was that??" I said "Your baby sister is kicking you!" Henry turned his head and put his paw back where he had it. She kicked him again. Same response from Henry. Finally the third time he was like "Ok, I'm done with this." He gets up and moves to DH's side of the bed. It was really funny to see Henry's reaction to the babies.

Tomorrow I have another OB appointment and my Glucose Tolerance Test.. Yum. I am seeing both my OB and the Perinatalogist and that will work out to have an appointment with a doc every week. Works for me. Firstly, it will let me know that the girls are ok and it's something to do! LOL. Just kidding. I cannot believe how quickly time has flown. I feel like I just found out I'm pregnant and now we have to start getting ready for them to be born!

Well, that is all for now. Time to get ready to go to MIL's house for Sunday dinner. Hope everyone has a great week! Talk at you all later!! =)

Weeks 22-25

2009-11-01T17:13:00.002-05:00

Ok, so a lot has happened the last few weeks. We went to the Perinatalogist,Dr. C, and she was REALLY sweet. I was told to eat more often and to reduce my activity amongst other things. She was very supportive and had a great attitude. I really like her. She told me to read this book on what to expect when you are expecting twins. It kinda scared me but I spoke to my regular OB and reassured me that my weight gain was fine and that the babies were perfectly healthy for their gestational age. =)

Last Thursday (10/22) I started feeling some weird pains in my lower abdomen. Nothing timeable or even that painful just these weird sensations. The next day (the 23rd) I had my 24 week ultrasound. We went to the U/S and low and behold I was going into pre-term labor!!! My cervix was shortening and I was dilated to 1 cm! The doc was worried so he sent us to the hospital. When they put me on the monitor I had a few contractions. I was in the hospital for 8 days. I finally came home yesterday around 3:30 pm. I am now on meds to prevent more contractions and on a home contraction monitor. Fun stuff! I am also on modified bedrest which mean I can only walk very short distances and have to spend the majority of my time sitting or laying down. It's kinda boring but the perks are that everything I want is brought to me and most importantly, my babies are safe inside my womb instead of in the NICU. The docs at the hospital said that every day that I stay pregnant, the chances of the babies being born with disabilities goes down 1-2%.

Next week is the only week in November that we won't have any appointments to go to. The following week we have a follow up with Dr.C, our pediatrician interview, another u/s and a baby care class!! This month is going to fly by especially with Thanksgiving around the corner.

My belly is growing everyday! It is so cool to see the babies kick from the outside! DH even got to feel them kick while I was in the hospital. The expression on his face when he felt them was priceless!!! now he wants to feel it all the time! LOL He is so cute. =)

Well, that is all for now. Hope everyone had a great Halloween yesterday and have a wonderful week!

Weeks 20 and 21

2009-10-04T10:03:00.003-04:00

So, we are half way through week 21 at this point and the babies and I are growing! I am finding it harder to do simple things and finding myself out of breath after some simple tasks.. I went to the mall yesterday with my mom and had to sit down a few times b/c I was out of breath and tired. We were just leisurely strolling along. It's not like we were running or anything! LOL.

We went and registered last week and though it was a bit overwhelming, afterwards I felt great! One less thing to worry about. Of course, now I stalk that thing every single day adding this or changing that. I have a few more weeks before invites for the shower go out but I think I am done adding things...

The girls are kicking more frequently everyday. I love love love that feeling! I do feel bad that my husband can't feel it yet from the outside. It is neat to see him try to "play" with the babies. He talks to them and gently nudges them. He also like to read to them. Mostly, it's the sports scores and highlights from games but he does it in a sing-song voice which is hilarious and sweet at the same time!

So, we went to the OB and he agreed that c-section was the way to go. As far as when, he was not sure. He said that we would probably schedule it for around January 27th. That would put me at 38 weeks. We will see if I make it that far. My guess is they will be here around January 20th.

Well, that is all for now. I am trying to get a good belly pic where I don't look horrible. LOL. I am also trying to get together all the U/s pics and I will have a picture post. I know I have been a bad girl where pics are concerned. I am gonig to remedy that. I promise!!! Hope everyone has a great week! Talk at you all later.

P.S. The Perinatalogist appointment was a bust. We went but they were so backed up that we had to reschedule for 10/12..

Weeks 16-19

2009-09-19T20:00:00.002-04:00

Let me start by saying sorry for the lapse in posting. Life is getting hectic! Everything is going great with the pregnancy and the babies are growing and kicking like crazy. We went for our big u/s on 9/10 and I am proud to announce we are having 2 GIRLS!!! Yaay! I was totally convinced they were boy /girl but girl/girl is fine with me. My husband wanted at least one boy but he is excited to have two little princesses who will worship him. LOL

We are coming to the point where it is time to start a registry. Can I just say, Holy overwhelming, Batman! Who knew there was SO MUCH to choose from!!! my MIL and Aunt in laws are throwing me a shower. I am very excited for the party but getting a registry together for it is proving harder than I had imagined. Everything is so cute but I want stuff that will be able to take a beating. If these girls are like I was when I was little, durable is the name of the game! LOL. It is also time to start signing up for childbirth and baby care classes. Eventhough I am a nurse I totally feel like I know nothing about caring for babies. It is one thing to take care of someone else's kids, quite another to take care of your own!

So, Monday we have another appointment with the OB. Time to talk delivery plans!! Woohoo! I have been doing a lot of thinking about this. I want to have a c-section b/c I am not pushing these kids out naturally. Plus, they are laying sideways. Always have. I doubt they will move. It's possible but doubtful. I want to deliver at the private hospital (see previous posts) but not sure if the OB will agree. Lots to be discussed.. We also have an appointment with the Perinatalogist. I am interested to see what she says! According to the OB, she is "quite thorough and picky" Good traits to have in her business, I think. I am also hoping she is nice. It makes a huge difference when the docs are nice and willing to listen to all concerns...

Well, that is all for now. Talk at you all later!! Next week is the big 2-0! Yaay! Hope everyone has a great week!

Weeks 14 and 15!

2009-08-25T19:28:00.002-04:00

Well, we are cruising along in the 2nd trimester now. Everything is going great. I went to the OB on the 10th and they told me my pressure was up 149/89. I think she used a cuff that was just too small. They made me do blood work and even a 24 hour urine collection! We went back yesterday and everything was fine. My pressure was 117/80 and all the labs came back normal. Thanks for freaking me out doc! More about yesterday's appointment. We heard the HBs again! I swear that is the most awesome sound EVER! Even DH was able to hear it better this time. Last time he complained to me that he couldn't really hear them. We got an appointment with the Perinatalogist for next month. I am interested to see what she says about the babies. We also got an appointment for the BIG U/S!!! Mark your calenders! 9/10 at 3:30 pm we will finally see who has been living in my uterus all this time! I am soooooo excited! I just cannot wait to finally know the genders. My mom is coming to the u/s too. She has been so eager to find out what the babies are. We go back to the OB in 4 weeks. Time is flying!

In related news, I am feeling pretty good. The nausea comes and goes. My belly is getting bigger but I still just look heavy. My mom and my DH say they see a difference but I can't really see it yet. I am growing out of my clothes, though. DH and I went shopping over the weekend b/c I just could not find any shirts that fit when we were getting ready to go to the store on Saturday. Luckily, my SIL gave me some maternity clothes when we were up in PA a few weeks ago. She is a size bigger than me but I figure since it's twins my belly is going to be much bigger than the average pregnant lady's. Life is good.

Well, that is all for now. Hope everyone enjoys their week. Tomorrow I will be 16 weeks. I will try to update again soon. Talk at you all later! =)

13 weeks!

2009-08-07T10:51:00.002-04:00

Well, we are officially into the 2nd Trimester!! Wooohooo!! The procedure in Philly went really well. The doctor and his staff were awesome. Such sweet people. We left with U/S pics of the twins. I am trying to figure out how I can scan them. I really want to show you all. =) So, now that we made it to 2nd tri, there are a few things that are freaking me out a little. My m/s is going away. That's cool but it was sort of my thing that let me know that the LO's were ok. My boobs are not as tender either. This too makes me nervous. I try to just relax and say to myself "Everything is ok. There is no proof that anything is wrong" I am trying to focus on upcoming milestones. The next milestone I am looking forward to is feeling the babies move around and kick!

Let's talk cravings! Boy have they changed just over the last 13 weeks! I was on this cereal kick where I was making DH buy me 2 boxes at a time. Well, now it has shifted to sweet stuff... I know, I know not good for me or babies. Good thing is that fruit seems to be quenching this craving. I am trying to eat as much fruit as I can but a girl can't resist Sour Gummy Bears every now and then.. Yum!

My next OB appointment is on Monday. I cannot wait to hear what he says on a wide range of topics. I will definitely let you all know what he says. I really getting excited about having these babies!! Also, per the instructions of the Philly doc we have to get another u/s sometime this coming week. I cannot wait to see the babies again.

Well, that is all for now. Hope everyone has a great weekend. I think I might try to get my mom to take me to BRU this weekend. hehe. Talk at you all later! =)

12 weeks!

2009-07-30T20:03:00.002-04:00

Woohoo! One more week until we are officially in the 2nd tri! Holy crap, where is the time going?? These babies will be here before I know it! I am feeling pretty good. Yesterday I threw up for the very first time. Ugh! That was HORRIBLE! To all my friends out there vomiting at least once a day, all I can say is Wow. You girls are strong! I barfed once and was ready to call it a day. Unfortunately, I couldn't because I was at work and everyone was like "Are you ok? Are you sick?" I had to practically tell the whole clinic that I was pregnant so they wouldn't call 911 for me. That was crazy! LOL. Today I am feeling much better. Everyone was like, "Are you feeling better today?" It was sweet but I was really embarrassed. I am not a quiet barfer if you know what I mean!

Tomorrow we are leaving for PA. I am having mixed emotions about this. As I have said, I am excited to see the family. Not thrilled about the appointment on Monday. I am hoping I can keep my emotions in check while I am around the girls that morning. I really do not want to scare them. They get nervous when they see grown ups crying. I am also praying that everything goes well. I'm not going to lie. I am scared! Everything about this procedure scares me. I just pray every night that everything goes well and that I have the strength to face this gracefully.

Well, that is all for now. I will try to update in Philly if I can. If not, I will let you all know how it all went in the 13 week update. Hope everyone has a fabulous weekend!

Weeks 10 and 11.

2009-07-22T16:34:00.002-04:00

Wow, I cannot believe I'm 11 weeks!!! Time is flying like crazy! 2 more weeks until we are officially in the 2nd trimester! So, things are moving along well. My belly isn't necessarily getting bigger but it is getting firmer. My theory is the bloat is going away being replaced with the uterus. The boobs still hurt and still feeling nausea, although the nausea is starting to subside. I'll be happy when I start to look pregnant and not just fat. hehe. DH wants to wait to tell extended family and friends until after we get back from Philly and we are sure that the twins are doing well. Though, I see his point, it's making me crazy NOT to say anything. I was talking to his cousin on FB and he was asking what was new and it took all my strength to say "Oh, nothing.." His mom and one of his aunts already knows the whole story but that's only because he trusts them not to tell the whole world until we are ready to.

So, I am off to see the OB again tomorrow for my NT scan. I am excited to see the babies but nervous. I just want everything to go ok. I have a feeling I will be nervous for the rest of my life where these babies are concerned! As one of my friends once told me "Welcome to motherhood!" She was right! I am having the hardest time sleeping at night. Before I got pregnant, I would think about how awesome it would be to have a baby and all the neat stuff we could do with and teach the baby and that would help me fall asleep.. Now, I think about the babies in my belly and I start to think about the cool stuff and then I find myslef worrying about everything. What if the babies have colic? What if they are allergic to cats? What if they fall on the tile learning how to walk and hurt themselves? What if I do something wrong? What if, what if, what if.... Boy, this is really helping me to appreciate my own mother even more than I already do! I am really trying to not stress myself out with the What ifs but they manage to find me at night...

Well, that is all for now. Hope everyone has a great week! Talk at you later! =)

9 1/2 weeks!

2009-07-11T10:14:00.002-04:00

So we've made it to 9 weeks! Yaay! I am feeling ok.. Tired a lot and still nauseous. The OB appontment went very well on Monday. He drew lots of blood and checked me out. Everything looked good to him. The doc was also in total agreement that reduction is the right thing to do. So, we've made an appointment for it and bought our plane tickets ( the doc is in NYC but sees patients in PA on mondays. we are flying to PA). I have a lot of mixed emotions about this. One part of me wants to just continue with the quad pregnancy while the other part of me knows how terribly risky it is to my life and the lives of the babies. I know in my mind that it is the right thing to do but it still makes me sad..

In related news, I have been looking at baby stuff. Holy cow, talk about overwhelming and expensive. Especially when I start to think about buying two of a lot of things! WOW! I'm wondering if there is anything I can get away with just buying one of?? Probably not. LOL. I am excited for my next OB appointment. He said last time that the next appointment we would talk about things like further prenatal testing, delivery, and fun stuff like that.. Yaay! I am curious to see where he would want me to deliver. He has privilages in two different hospitals. One is a community teaching hospital and the other is a private hospital. The teaching hospital has a level 3 NICU and the docs are up to date on all the new drugs and therapies for preemies (in case the twins need it). The private hospital also has a level 3 NICU and is also up to date on all the new things for preemies. So, it will be interesting to see which one he prefers. My choice would be the private hospital only because it is closer to my house.

Well, that is all for today. Hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend!

8 weeks!

2009-07-04T00:25:00.002-04:00

Plus a few days... So we went to the RE on 7/1 and got to see the quads again. All 4 HBs here in the 150s-160s so that was cool. We also were discharged from the RE's care to my OB!! Yaaay! My first appointment with the OB is on 7/6. Very exciting!!

I am feeling ok. I have been trying to keep the nausea to a minimum and I think I am doing a good job. My belly is getting bigger everyday and I have officially grown out of my regular jeans into my maternity jeans. My regular shirts, however, I can still wear. I have a few that are getting a little tight, though. Last weekend I went shopping with my mom for maternity clothes. We found an AWESOME sale at JC Penny!!! I got these really nice maternity jeans for $6!!! No joke! There originally like $30 but were like marked down a bunch of times! I found these 2 maternity tops that are super cute! I need to go back and get more stuff. The only problem I am encountering is that there are no stores in my area that sell Plus sized maternity clothes. I am going to have to travel about an hour away to find a few stores that sell plus sizes. That is NOT fair! I am also starting to realize that my boobs are getting bigger. I knew this would happen, I just was not expecting it this soon. I think I have already gone from a C cup to a D cup. How big are these things gonna get?!?!

As far as the reduction goes, I am waiting to hear about whether the insurance will cover it. Then we will start making arraignments to go to NYC. I am a little scared about the whole thing. I hate that we even have to do it...

Well, that is all for tonight. Hope everyone has a great 4Th of July!!! Happy Independence Day!

7 Weeks!

2009-06-23T19:24:00.003-04:00

Another week and a big suprise at today's U/S!!! You all are NOT going to believe this. So, we are in the u/s room nervous as hell. I am scared they are going to tell me the baby is not viable, while DH is scared they are going to tell us there is like 4 babies in there. Guess who was right?!?! Well, it wasn't me (Thank goodness)!!!!! That's right! I am pregnant with QUADS!!!!! We saw all 4 HBs today and all I can say is Holy Sh*t! But, after much deliberation and whole lot of freaking out we have come to the conclusion that given my medical history and eveything that I really cannot carry 4 babies to term and that we are going to reduce by 2. It's a tough decision but my doctor agrees that it is the right decision. As much as I would love to keep all four, it just isn't possible. I also think that it just wouldn't be fair to leave my hubby with 4 babies to care for on his own. I would much rather be alive and be able to care for twins. So, this means we are going to have twins!! That is pretty awesome.

I am doing a lot of research on multiples and such so this should be interesting. Stay Tuned!! If you have any questions, please do not hesitate to ask! =)

6 weeks!

2009-06-16T09:56:00.004-04:00

So far, so good. The nausea is coming more frequent now but no actual vomiting so that's good. I am beyond exhausted and the funny thing is it hit me on Sunday like a ton of bricks! I was feeling fine until then. One more week until my 1st OB u/s and I am going crazy!! I just want to know that everything is ok! I am starting to get scared that something is wrong.. I have absolutely NO reason to think that but I just think it's because the last time didn't go so well. I pray everyday for a healthy baby and a healthy pregnancy. We still haven't told the families yet (except my mom).. It's so weird keeping this secret from them. My MIL is always asking us if anything new is going on and we keep saying "Oh, nothing..." We decided that next week, after the appointment when are sure everything is ok, that we will tell everyone. I can't wait to see/hear their reactions!

I also keep thinking about the possibility of multiples.. This worries me a little. I have decided that I would be ok with twins or even triplets but not sure what I would do or how I would feel about higher order multiples.. DH is freaked out over the thought of quads or quints. Twins, I think, would be a lot of work but a lot of fun at the same time. I know even just one baby is a lot of work and DH and I are totally ready for it! I guess we will see on the 23rd what God has in store for us!

Hope everyone has a great day! Talk at you all later!!

Third IUI's a charm!

2009-06-09T19:18:00.002-04:00

That's right! I am pregnant! I feel like I was just posting this a few weeks ago. Well, this time I think we have a good one. My beta came back at a whopping 2,477 at 18dpIUI!! I was shocked! I have never seen it that high! The RE was pleased and they said they weren't going to do anymore blood work. My 1st OB u/s is on 6/23. I am soooo excited, nervous, scared, happy, worried.. All at once! I cannot believe this is happening! Yaaaay!!!

My mom is still convinced there are 3 in there. I am not so sure. 1 healthy one is all we need. Although, I have been having a lot of twin dreams lately. Back when I was going for follie checks is when the twin dreams started. We will see! We should know how many are in there on the 23rd! Eeeek! I am soo excited! Have I mentioned that?? So, right now I am about 5 weeks along. At the ultrasound I should be about 7 weeks. I am praying that we can see a HB. OMG! I am so nervous just thinking about the u/s....

Well, that is all for now.. Hope everyone has a wonderful evening! Talk at you all later!

And So We Wait.....

2009-05-25T13:02:00.002-04:00

Lots has happened in the past 2 weeks since my last blog. So, I took the injectables (Follistim, to be exact). It worked VERY well. I ended up with like 3 HUGE follies measuring 18mm,20mm and 17mm!! I told you they were huge. So I took my trigger shot to help me ovulate and we then did 2 IUIs back to back. I am currently in the 2 week wait and still very hopeful this will work! We will find out on 6/8/09. Woohoo! I am excited! One thing that I find very odd is that I am starting to get phantom symptoms.. My boobs are KILLING me. Now I know that it is waaaaay too early for me to be feeling symptoms but this I cannot ignore. They HURT!! My mom says it's the triplets. Haha! Very funny mom! I guess we will just have to tough it out the next 2 weeks to find out if I am crazy or pregnant..Maybe I'm both! LOL.

In other news, next Saturday (the 30th) is out House warming party. I am getting excited about that. All of DH's local family are coming and so are a few of our friends. It's crazy trying to get the house looking nice, remembering what food to serve, do we have enough? Did we remember the beverages? Should we serve coffee? Is there anything we are forgetting? Where should we put the cat during all this? Will he be ok? Oy! Lots to think about and not a lot of time to figure it out in. I just want everything to go smoothly. I am not very good at throwing parties because we didn't throw many parties when I was a kid. The only ones I can remember are my birthday parties and an occasional holiday party. Otherwise it was just my mom and I celebrating whatever holiday it was.. So, I am enlisting the help of my MIL to help me remember everything and make sure I am doing things correctly. I will be putting pics up after the party! (Woohoo! Finally some house pics!!)

Well, that is all for now. Happy Memorial Day! Hope everyone has a great day!

Injectables and other things...

2009-05-08T12:13:00.003-04:00

So, we went the doc yesterday and according to him it is time to move to injectables. So, I start them tomorrow evening. yikes! He also said that the reason for the m/c's was because of inadequate egg ripening that lead to chromosomal abnormalities when the egg was fertilized. I was taking Clomid and he said that it was harder to really monitor the growth of the follicles with the Clomid because you cannot adjust the dose. Well, with the Follistim he can monitor me much closer and adjust my dose if needed. I go back Monday, Wednesday and Friday to check the follies and have blood work to check my estrogen levels. Talk about a science experiment! LOL. They gave me all this info on how to use the pen-thingy that the medicine comes in.. I feel like I am back in Nursing school! It's a whole big process to load the pen and dial up the right dosage. I am going to have to watch the dvd a few times before I actually do this. I am used to just drawing up medicine from a bottle with a syringe. This pen thingy look a little odd. This should be interesting!

In other news, this Sunday is Mother's Day. Happy Mother's Day to all the mommies out there. I WILL be joining the celebration next year! This year as with previous years, we are going to DH's aunt's house for a yummy brunch. I cannot wait!! It will be a lot of fun.

Well, that is all for now. Hope everyone has an awesome weekend! Talk at you all later!

Bad news.

2009-05-05T18:37:00.003-04:00

Let me start from the beginning... I went for beta #1 on Wednesday and it was at 53. So, I went for beta #2 yesterday and they called me and said it was 2. It should have been around 300. They also said to come back this AM for another beta to make sure that yesterday's wasn't a mistake or something. I did and it was at 1. So, needless to say, we lost the baby. I cannot believe this is happening to us again!!! We were soo excited and I was soooo hopeful that this pregnancy would be different. Why, God? Why are you doing this to us??? All I have ever wanted in the whole world was to be a mom. Now I have 2 angel babies. This is NOT fair! I feel like such a failure. Failure as a mom, as a wife, as a woman. Don't get me wrong.. My husband has been wonderful throughout all this. If he thought for one second I felt this way it would tear him up inside.. But I just feel like everyone else's wives get pregnant and have babies and his can't. Life is NOT fair!
Ok, pity party is over.

So what's next? Well, we have an appointment to see the RE on Tuesday to discuss what happened, why he thinks it happened and what our next step is. Injectables. Oy! I guess I'll have to suck it up and just do it. If it results in a pregnancy that goes full term, then I am all for it! Third time's a charm, right?

Thanks for reading this far down. Hope everyone has a great day tomorrow. Talk at you all later!

Well, It's official!

2009-04-29T12:18:00.002-04:00

See that?? That's right! I am PREGNANT!!!!! Yaaay! DH and I are sooo excited and in a bit of shock. We haven't told the family yet and we have decided to wait until we officially see the HB before we shout it from the rooftops. I did tell my mom though because she knows all about our efforts in the TTC arena and I figure she should be the first to know. She is also VERY good at keeping a secret so I know she won't go blabbing it to everyone she sees. I should be getting my beta results this afternoon. I am soo happy! i have been having some wicked symptoms too. Everything from extremely sore breasts, nausea, tiredness and always hungry.. I was afraid to get excited only because my body has played some mean tricks on me before. It seems so unreal. I feel like I dreamed it!!
Well, that is all for today! Talk at you later! Have a great day!

Today was my EDD...

2009-04-20T12:10:00.002-04:00

Yup, that's right. It's been over 7 months since we lost Eggbert and if all had gone as I had planned I would be sitting here with a full term baby in my belly. I just keep praying that soon I will have a baby belly. Right now I am halfway through another 2 WW. I pray everyday that there is a little person growing inside of me. I still can't believe how quick time has flown. I know there is a reason why we are going through all this struggle and heart ache. The end result is worth every moment of this. Well, that is all for now. Hope everyone has a great Monday.
Stay tuned! Pics coming soon of the new house!

It's the weekend! Woohoo!

2009-04-04T10:51:00.002-04:00

So, not much new going on around here. Still getting things put away and settling into the new house. Thursday was my niece's 3rd b-day!! 3?? How did she do that? Wasn't she just floating around in my SIL's ute like last week or something?? LOL. They grow up soo fast! I can't wait for them to come down here in November!
So, we went to the Panthers (hockey) game last night. They lost but it was nice to go out and do something different. We also got to eat at my favorite restaurant, Cracker Barrel. Usually we only go there when we are traveling so, it was weird to be there and not be on our way to somewhere up north or even to Disney. The food there is awesome and the little general store in the front is full of cute stuff! I really wanted to get a few things for the new house but we ran out of time after dinner. Boo. Oh well, next time!
Well, I better run. Time to get ready to go to Home Depot and other exciting places like that. Funny thing is, when I was a kid I HATED going to Home Depot. Now, I can't wait! LOL. Stay tuned! I promise the house pics are coming SOON!!!!

We're In Our New Home!!!

2009-03-31T20:36:00.003-04:00

We did it! We did it! Hurray! ( That's for all the Dora fans out there. LOL) We have finally moved all the stuff into the new house and it is wonderful! I am in love with this place. I love being able to put things away! We did not have this luxury in the old house so, needless to say, it was cluttered. No major clutter in the new house. I will not allow it!! hehe. I am going to take pics as soon as we do a little more decorating. The walls are a little plain. Hopefully this weekend we will put up our pictures and such and I can take some pics. =)

In other news, AF should up the day after we moved in. Dang! I was hoping the bitch wouldn't find me here but she did... So, it's back to the Clomid. I start the Clomid tonight and we are going to do 2 IUI's instead of just one like we did last time. I am trying to stay hopeful. My mom kept telling me before that God was waiting for us to have a home to bring the baby to. Well, we are fully moved in and ready. So, hopefully we will have some luck this time.

Being a homeowner is exciting. The funny thing is I am so used to renting that when we find little things that need fixing my first thought is to call the landlords.. Um, that would be me and DH. hahaha. At least we have a great support system in my mom and his mom who are ready and willing to guide us through any challenges we face in homeownership.

Well, that is all for tonight. It is getting late and I have to work tomorrow. Hope everyone has a great day tomorrow and a wonderful night tonight! =D

Friday the 13th.

2009-03-13T11:42:00.002-04:00

Are you superstitious? Me, not really. There is a black cat that lives in my neighborhood that hangs out on my front porch and nothing has happened. I also broke a piece of a mirror a few years ago. Again, nothing terrible has happened. I do knock on wood though..

Anyways, we are down to 1 more week till the closing. I am so excited! I am also looking around this townhouse we are in now thinking "Oh boy, we have to move all this crap to the new place.Yikes!" We have been throwing away a lot of stuff and yet there is more. It seems like every time I turn around there is more and more stuff! LOL. Who knew 2 people could accumulate so much in just 2 years of living together. There is also some stuff that my mom never got out of this place from when she used to live here. She has promised to come over this weekend and clean out her stuff. We will see how that goes...

Next weekend we are going furniture and appliance shopping!!! We know pretty much what we want so I guess you could say we are going to pay for it and pick it up. hehe. We are going to have a red couch in our family room. This is significant because DH is not one for bright colors and weird patterns so I was a little shocked when he said he liked the red one.

So that is all for now. I have to get back to cleaning and throwing away. Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. Talk at you all later!! =)

I'm Back!!!

2009-03-03T17:14:00.002-05:00

I actually didn't go anywhere. I just have been pretty busy. So, on with the updates.. Well, I am NOT pregnant. =( DH and I have decided we are going to take a 1 cycle break. My RE wants us to move on to injectables but they cost anywhere from $800-$2000!!! We are in the middle of buying a house and we just can't dish out that kind of money right now. Once we close and everything settles down, we will probably go for it. We are trying to figure out what to do. I am not to thrilled with the idea of giving myself shots everyday but I will do whatever it takes to have a healthy baby. DH is not a fan of the price of the injectables.

In house news, we are T-17 days until closing!! I am getting more and more excited and nervous with every passing day. I am trying to get the place we are living in now cleaned up and start packing. Eeek! We are getting new appliances and some new furniture for the living room and family room! So exciting! We are also going to paint the bedrooms. I LOVE looking at paint samples. Hehe. I am easily entertained! My mom and MIL keep asking to see the new house. I really want to show them but the owner still lives there and is probably trying to pack her stuff so I just keep telling them they have to wait until the closing.

I am so glad I have something to occupy my mind during this cycle that we are taking a break because if I did not have anything, I think I would lose my mind!! I am also reading an awesome book which also helps keep the mind off of the break..

Not much else going on here. Hope everyone had a great evening. Talk at you all later!! Now what to make for dinner.......

5 DPIUI...

2009-02-12T17:18:00.002-05:00

and I'm going nutty... All I can think about is "Am I pregnant?, Did the IUI work? Will I be having a baby in 9 months?" Aack! My brain hurts from thinking too much. I am still very hopeful about this cycle. Let me back up a little bit.. I had an IUI done on Saturday the 7th. Last night I did my second HCG shot. On the 24th, we go in for the pregnancy test! I cannot wait to find out what is going on in my uterus! *Fingers crossed for a + hpt*

In other news, our offer on the perfect house was rejected.. Boo. We are going to send in a counter offer and hope for the best. I REALLY want that house!! I want to bring our baby home to that house and watch our kids grow up there. So, tonight we are going to sign the papers. Wish us luck!

So, our cat has been making us crazy! LOL. he sit right in front of the TV and just look at us. It is as if he is mocking us! He sits there so that we cannot see the TV. Granted, the TV is bigger than him but he is not see through and it's just annoying! haha.

Well, that is all tonight. Hope everyone has a great rest of the week and a great weekend! Happy Valentines Day!!

Woohoo!

2009-02-04T18:46:00.002-05:00

So, I went to the RE this AM and to my suprise there were 2 HUGE follies in my left ovary!!! They measured 19.2 and 19.4 mm! That is soooo awesome! So it look like I will be Oing the end of this week! We go in tomorrow for a post-coital test and for the doc to give me the HCG shot. I am soo happy! Here's hoping this will be our cycle..

That is all for now. Hope everyone has a great evening!!

What a Weekend!!

2009-02-02T18:29:00.002-05:00

So, there is a lot to talk about! Friday was the HSG and it went well. The Radiologist said my tubes are all clear! So, that is pretty awesome. It was a little painful but not nearly as bad as I was imagining.. The nurse was really sweet and held my hand as she talked me through the procedure. Wednesday I go in for the 1st follie check. I will only be on CD 13 so I am not sure they will see much. We can home, though.. =)

On to the BIG news!!!! We have found THE house! We were out house hunting yesterday and this was the 3rd of 5 houses that we saw. We fell in love immediately!! It's a 4/3 with a pool, updated kitchen and bathrooms. DH and I LOVE this house. The fact that it is totally move in ready is awesome! It is also in a really great neighborhood and the schools are top notch! So, DH and I put in an offer yesterday. The waiting game begins.... Wish us luck! I am sooooo excited, nervous, scared, happy all at once. I am praying we hear from the real estate lady soon with good news. Of course I will update us as soon as we know anything.

Lots of exciting things going on... Now I just need to get pregnant! LOL. Hope everyone had a great weekend and a great Monday. Talk at you all later!

House Hunting and baby making...

2009-01-28T18:46:00.002-05:00

So, lots of stuff has been going on this week so I thought I'd update my readers. Last weekend we went out with our realtor and saw 6 more houses. We found two that we really liked. The only problem was in house #1, the garage did not have an entrance into the house and house #2 had no patio, no updated kitchen and the yard was small... Boo. We were thinking about overlooking those things but after much consideration, we decided we did not want to just "settle" for a house. As my MIL says, the house has to grab you and you have to LOVE it. So it is off to see more houses this weekend. There is one really nice one that I am look foreword to seeing. There is one problem, it's a short sale. That means the owner asked the bank if they could sell it for less than they owed and the bank said yes. So, when the potential buyer puts in an offer it could take up to 6 months to find out if the bank accepts the offer. We'll see what happens.

In baby-making news, I started my Clomid a few days ago. I am starting to get the hot flashes. LOL. I feel like an old lady. haha. Tomorrow I go to my RE so I can get all my paperwork and antibiotics to get ready for my HSG on Friday. I am sooo nervous about the HSG. I am hoping it does not hurt and that they don't find anything too terrible. I am trying to keep in mind that this will up our chances to 40%... G-d please let this be our cycle! I am also hoping it works this time so that I do not have to start injectables. I am not a fan of giving myself shots..

It has been a busy week at work too. I worked overtime yesterday to make a little extra money. I am exhausted! Those patients were running me ragged! LOL.. I am trying to find a more permanent position. This is not as easy as I thought it would be. What happened to the nursing shortage? I thought an experienced RN was a hot commodity. Oh well, my search continues..

Hope everyone is having a great week. I'll let you know how the HSG goes. Talk at you all later!! Thanks for reading this far!

I'm a bad, bad blogger...

2009-01-21T19:36:00.003-05:00

Forgive me readers, for I have sinned. It has been 10 days since my last post. Lots going on to update you all on. We had our 2 year anniversary on Wednesday the 14Th and the next morning we flew to Philadelphia to visit family. It was wonderful! On the 16Th I met my BFPB! She is awesome! We had a lot of fun and I was so excited to finally meet her in person. She is as nice and sweet as I had imagined she would be. I hope we can get together again sometime. We flew home on the 19Th. =(

So, we officially have a new President. I was watching the inauguration yesterday and was in awe of the fact that I was watching history in the making. That is soooo cool!! I will have to remember to tell my kids where I was and how I felt to see the first African-American President be sworn into office!!

I went to the RE yesterday too. Another BFN as I had anticipated. I haven't been getting any symptoms so I wasn't totally shocked. The doc wants to try Clomid one more time and if that doesn't work he was talking about starting Injectables! Yikes! I also have to have an HSG as I mentioned in earlier posts. It looks like it will be late next week sometime.. I'm nervous. The good thing is they say that my chances of getting pregnant during the cycle of the HSG go up to 40%. So, that is pretty cool. I am trying to stay optimistic and continue to stay positive. I have to admit, though, it's getting harder. I am not losing hope yet but those obnoxious thoughts invade my brain every now and then. "When is it going to happen? Will it happen? I can get pregnant but can I STAY pregnant long enough to have a healthy baby?" and so on. I try to push those thoughts aside and think happy thoughts.

So, that is all for tonight. Hope everyone is having a good week. Happy Hump Day!!

Adventures in House Hunting

2009-01-11T13:53:00.002-05:00

So, I promised I would update you all on how our house hunting went. We saw 5 houses.. The first one was a dump (that's putting it nicely). It had an ILLEGAL efficiency where the garage should be and a lot of water damage everywhere. The kitchen was all torn out. Lovely. House #2 There were renters living there and they slammed the door in our faces. House #3 had another illegal efficiency and was the second house in from a busy street. It was decent and with a little TLC could be a very nice house. DH didn't like the noisy street being right there. House #4 was incredible!!!! It was almost too perfect. The house looked like a model. The only problem is we are not quite ready to make an offer and by the time we got home and the real estate lady's housband (who is a mortgage broker) called us to tell us we were pre approved there were already 2 offers for house #4. House #5 had a drifter living in it. He wasn't there when we got there but all of his stuff was and there was a car in the driveway. How do we know he's a drifter? Well, the house is bank owned and the front door had been broken into. All in all we had fun. It was quite an eye-opening experience!! LOL. So, we have 10 more houses we are interested in seeing. I am sooo happy that we are pre-approved for the amount we thought we would get! Woohoo!!!

Next weekend we will be in Pennsylvania. No house hunting until the following weekend.. So, I hope everyone is enjoying your weekend!

Happy Friday!

2009-01-09T19:42:00.002-05:00

Not much going on around here.. Tomorrow DH and I are going out to look at houses! I am so excited!! DH sent 10 listings to the real estate lady so we will be very busy.. We have been looking online for a while and I am glad were moving forward and actually going to look at the inside in person. I have figured out that I am addicted to HGTV! I love watching all the house hunting and decorating shows.. It's wild. I never used to watch that channel and now I just cannot get enough!! LOL. I watched it ALL DAY LONG today! haha

6 more days until we go to Pennsylvania!! I cannot wait to see my SIL, BIL and my nieces! I will also get to see a couple of my friends Laney and Mary! Woohoo! I love going up north during winter. Here in South Florida we do not get much of a winter. The coldest it gets is like 45 overnight! My friends think I am nutty but I love the cool crisp air and playing in the snow with "my girls". I even bought some cute winter wear to take up there.. I must say, it is hard to find Winter clothes in Florida. hehe.

In TTC news, I took the other half of my HCG shot this morning. We are supposed to go for a pregnancy test on 1/19 except we will not be in town. I will be testing with a HPT that weekend and then going in for the confirmation on 1/20.. I am nervous. I have not had any symptoms yet but I am thinking it is probably still a little too early.. I am only 6 dpo today. I am starting to feel a little emotional but that does not mean much..

Well, that is all for today. I will update this weekend on how the house hunt went. Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!

RE Appointment

2009-01-02T22:23:00.002-05:00

So, we went to the RE this morning. Everything went pretty well. There was one nice follie measuring in at 17.7 mm. They would like to see it around 18 mm. They also drew some blood to check Estrogen and Progesterone levels. The PA called me back this evening and told me that my Estrogen was 185 and they like to see it above 200. =( So, she told me to go ahead and trigger with the HCG tomorrow and to do our thing Sunday, Monday and Tuesday. Here is the thing; She was very pessimistic and rude about it!! She was like "The doc says you can trigger tomorrow and I guess you can go ahead and have intercourse....." WTF???? Then she's like " You can come into the office in 2 weeks for a pregnancy test if you want." If I want?!?! WTF is up with that???? Her whole attitude was like "Well, go ahead and induce ovulation so we can start again next cycle.." Gee thanks for the support and optimism, BITCH!!! I understand if the levels are not favorable and the size of the follie is not perfect. But she can at least be nice about it. She always has this attitude about her. Every time I see her it's like I am bothering her or annoying her by just being there. Now you are probably thinking "Why not switch docs?" The doctor is AWESOME!! I love him. Always happy to see us and supportive. He is so nice and very proactive about the whole TTC thing. Even the office staff and the nurse are soo nice. The PA is the only one that is a total bitch. No personality whatsoever!!

Ok, my vent is over.... *Deep Breath* I guess we will trigger tomorrow, do our thing and hope for the best. DH is like " Don't let her get to you." He's right but it's hard sometimes...

In other news, my mom is coming home from a cruise tomorrow. We have been doggie-sitting for her. Don't get me wrong, I love Eddie (the dog) but he is so miserable without his "mommy". He just mopes around and gets excited when he hears a noise outside thinking it's my mom coming back for him. What a dog.. LOL. I miss her too.

Well, that is all for now. Thank you for listening to my vent. Hope everyone has a great weekend! Talk at you later! =)

Happy New Year!!

2008-12-30T19:01:00.003-05:00

Wow. I cannot believe this year is almost over! It's wild.. So much has happened. It started with our 1 year anniversary. We went to Disney and had a wonderful time. They gave us little buttons that said "Happy Anniversary". Very cute and they gave us some preferential treatment. We were in Epcot looking at the America exhibit when this guy in costume came up to me and asked my what my name is. I told him and he said "Oh! I have been looking for you!" Then he gave us a certificate saying "Happy 1 year Anniversary" Then he took us to the little restaurant and told us we could pick any dessert we wanted. So we did and as we stood there waiting for the desserts to come he exclaims " Hear Ye! Hear Ye! We have Mr and Mrs. M(last name) here celebrating their first anniversary with us tonight! " At that point everyone started clapping and cheering. It was really cute.

Then in May my MIL retired from 35 years of teaching and we had a huge party. It was really neat to see all these people who came out to celebrate this occasion with us.
In June we went to Alaska. That was awesome!! I felt like I was in a movie or something. Everywhere we turned, there was beautiful scenery and the people we so nice. We got to see a bear and a moose in the wild. We got back with a lot of wonderful pictures. I cannot wait to go back some day and show our kids all of the beauty of the Alaskan Wilderness.

When we came back we started TTC. We started seeing the RE at the end of June and by August we were pregnant! It was the most exciting and nervous time of my life. In September we lost the baby. I have never felt a pain like that of finding out my baby was gone. I did a lot of crying and soul searching. I never want to feel that pain ever again! In October, I finally passed the baby and we started TTC again. In November we got to see our family and it was so wonderful to have something to take our mind off of TTC. So, that was 2008 for us. I am hoping for a wonderful 2009 for us and for all of our friends and family!!

On the TTC front, we went to the RE yesterday and as I had suspected, it was a little to early. I have 3 follies in one ovary and 2 in the other. To which, DH says "Quints?!?!" LOL. He is soo funny. The follies are too small measuring at 10-11 mm. They would like to see the follies around 18mm. So, we go back on Friday. I am praying for nice big healthy follies! I already ordered the HCG shot and recieved it in the mail today! Wow, talk about customer service!! It got from Maine to Florida in about 24 hours! So, here's to hoping I will be Oing this weekend and we will be doing what we need to do. If you know what I mean *wink wink*

Well, that is all for now. If you have gotten this far, thanks!! Hope everyone has a happy and safe new year! Talk at you all later!

Merry Christmas and Happy Hannukah Everyone!!

2008-12-25T11:34:00.003-05:00

So, today is Christmas.. I am feeling ok,I guess. I just finished the Clomid last night. I swear this medicine is messing with my head.. I don't like being a royal bitch from hell. Yet, everything is annoying me. Even things that don't normally bother me are pissing me off. I hate this. I want my normal self back. I am sure my dh feel the same way. =(
On a lighter note, we are going to my mom's house this afternoon for Christmas. It should be fun. I like hanging out with her. I just hope I can keep my attitude in check... We are actually doing our gift exchange on Saturday because my mom fell on her bad knee again so she couldn't go shopping. My mom is the last minute shopping queen! LOL.

On the TTC front, our appointment for a follie check is Monday! I cannot wait to see how many follies we have. So, it looks like we are still on track for Oing on New Year's Eve! I think that's pretty cool. I just keep praying for success this time around....

Well, that is all for today.. I have to go check on my creamed corn now. Hehe. Hope everyone has a great holiday! Talk at you all later! =)

AF is here!

2008-12-19T20:27:00.002-05:00

Well, AF made her grand entrance yesterday at about 9:00 AM while I was at work. Luckily I had protection and caught it just in time. So, this means I will be Oing around New Year's Eve! That's pretty cool. I am still pretty optimistic about all this. I went to my RE this morning for a baseline U/S to make sure everything was clear to start again. Everything looked good. The nurse started talking about possibly doing a Hysterosalpinogram to make sure there are no blockages in my fallopian tubes. They have to do cultures before they can do the HSG to make sure there is no unnecessary bacteria that might get into the uterus during the procedure. Well, they tried to do the culture this morning and couldn't because there was to much blood down there. So, if we do not get pregnant this cycle they will try to do the culture again and the HSG. I am hoping and praying extra hard that I get pregnant this cycle so I do not have to have the HSG.

In other news, I am pretty much ready for the holidays. The presents we got for our nieces are being sent out this weekend and I need to wrap my mom's gift and we are all set! Sunday is our family's Hanukkah party! I am excited! I cannot wait to see everyone. I cannot believe this year is practically over! Where did it go?? So much happened to us this year. I will be doing a retrospective some time next week so stay tuned! Well, that is all for tonight. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

P.S. If anyone has had an HSG, please tell me about your experience. Thanks!

RE Appointment Update....

2008-12-15T18:57:00.005-05:00

So, we went to the RE this morning and the test was negative.=(
I'm bummed. I was really hoping and praying for a positive... Hopefully next cycle. DH is bummed too. He almost looked like he was going to cry... So, all my "symptoms" were just PMS rearing it's ugly head. I am actually starting to get cramps right now. This sucks! Now we wait for AF to show up. Then we will try again.. What else can we do? I wanted soo much to be pregnant for Hanukkah..

OK the pity party is over. Time to look to the future and get ready to start again. I am hoping AF comes by Friday. That would be nice. That would mean we would find out around the middle of January. Our 2 year anniversary is 1/14/09. That would be such an awesome anniversary gift!!!

In other news, work is going well. Our holiday party is on Thursday. We are doing secret Santa and I forgot to buy my gift for the girl that I picked. I will go out and get it tomorrow or Wednesday. On Sunday is the family Hanukkah party. That will be fun. I really love getting together with the family. For Christmas we are going to my mom's house. I am excited to show her what I got for her. She will be THRILLED!! LOL. I got her a new set of pots and pans. She needs them. She hasn't had a new set for like 30 years!!! I think it's time for a new set!

Well, that is all for today. Hope everyone has a great evening and I'll talk at you all later.

P.S. CONGRATS to my BFPB Laney on her BFP this AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Friday!

2008-12-12T20:14:00.002-05:00

I cannot believe this week is over! I was totally expecting it to go sooo slow but it actually went quick! Not much new going on in here.. Last night DH and I went to see the funniest comedian I have seen in a long time! His name is Jeff Dunham. I am sure I have mentioned him here a time or two. At first we weren't going to go b/c the tix were so damn expensive but last night my DH got a call from his cousin. It turns out they decided not to go and gave us their tix!! How nice, right?! We have to thank them properly. The show was awesome!! he was so funny and didn't skip a beat! DH and I are still bouncing lines from the show off each other and laughing.. LOL.

My mom went to the Ortho doc yesterday and he have her a shot of something in her knee. She's not sure what it was but she says her knee doesn't hurt as much today! Yaay! Small victories. I am hoping this means she is on the road to recovery..

On the TTC front, as you know, we will find out on Monday if I am pregnant. Very exciting! I still have all my "Phantom" symptoms.. Here's to hoping they are the real thing! My mom is soo excited to find out too. She keeps asking if we will really know on Monday. She even wanted to know if we would have a u/s to see the baby on Monday. LOL. Gotta love Mom. I told her no we would only know if I was pregnant or not and if I am then we have to wait another 2 or 3 weeks to "see" the baby and hopefully a HB. She's so funny.

So, as for plans this weekend, we really don't have any. At least nothing new.. Just laundry, grocery shopping and visiting my mom and his mom. Same old.. Hope everyone has a great weekend and wish me luck for Monday!!!

3 Months Ago Today....

2008-12-08T19:49:00.003-05:00

we found out about the M/C.. I cannot believe it has been 3 months. Sometimes it feels like yesterday and sometimes it feels like a million years ago. I think I have moved on. I will never forget my little Eggbert but I really think I am ready to be pregnant again. I still get sad when I think of what could have been and all that but I am a big believer in things happen for a reason.. I just hope and pray that the next pregnancy goes full term and my DH and I end up with a healthy, happy baby. I really feel that I have grown as a woman because of this experience it and has changed our relationship for the better. We are more committed to having a family and we will be more appreciative of whatever God gives us.

In other news, my phantom symptoms are in full force now... Between the tiredness, nausea, moodiness and bloating I am a mess. I could fall asleep right now! I hope these are the real thing. My body loves to mess with me so I can never just say to myself "I feel like crap. Oh, I must be pregnant!" LOL. I told my mom about my "Symptoms" and her first reaction was "Oh yeah, you must be pregnant." I love my mom very much but she just doesn't get it. She was one of these women that sneezed and got pregnant. It's funny trying to explain to my mom about how fertility treatments work and the art of Ovulation and Baby-making! LOL. She's usually the one explaining things to me.

Well, that's all for tonight. Hope everyone is having a great evening... Thanks for listening to my ramblings. Talk at you all later!!!

9 more days..

2008-12-05T20:39:00.002-05:00

but who's counting! In about 9 days I find out if there is someone growing inside of me!! I am so nervous, excited, impatient and a little scared. Just scared that IF I am pregnant, that something will go wrong.. I am trying to think positive! Ha! Get it, positive! LOL. OK, OK lame joke. hehe. I am starting to get phantom symptoms which doesn't help. I am tired (more so than usual), VERY moody (poor dh), a little nauseous but at night instead of in the AM and a little more hungry than usual... Aaack! This is making me nuts! I also think that I am comparing how I feel right now with how I was feeling before we found out about the 1st one.. It's totally messing with my head.

On the work front, I joined a new agency because I found out that the one I am working with is being dropped from the hospital that I am at and I really want to stay where I am at. I was hoping they would hire me permanently but supposedly, according to the assistant manager, there are no spaces. I know for a fact that is not true so I have to go talk to the manager of the department. Wish me luck! I am just hoping once the new agency gets all the paperwork they need that it will be a seamless transition from one agency to another and I can continue to work at the hospital that I am at... We will see what happens.

Well, that is all for tonight. Hope everyone had a great Friday and has a wonderful weekend! Talk at you later.

Happy December

2008-12-01T19:50:00.002-05:00

Well, it's Monday. Boo. My nieces and their parents are already back home by now. They left this AM. It was sooo incredibly awesome to see the family and spend quality time with them. They absolutely LOVED the museum! I was so happy to see them having a blast and running around everywhere. On Sunday we just hung out at the mall and relaxed. No big plans. I was sad to say good bye. My older niece actually cried. =( She never cried before when we left. We will be seeing them in 6 weeks so that's cool. We are going up in January to visit them at their house.

On the TTC front, I start my Progesterone suppositories tomorrow AM. I have to take 2 a day vaginally. That will be interesting. I remember last cycle it got a bit messy but I have figured out how to keep it from getting all over the place. On Friday I take the second half of my HCG shot. I really hope all this works and that the baby sticks! We go in on December 15th for the pregnancy test!!! Aaah! I cannot wait!

Well, that is all for tonight. Hope everyone had a great Monday. Talk at you later!

It's O time!!!

2008-11-28T15:09:00.003-05:00

I went to my RE this morning and the nurse "R" said I had 2 "Nice big follies" in my left ovary!! Yaaay! So, tomorrow morning I have to give myself the HCG shot. Then it's sexy time Sat,Sun and Monday! Haha. This will be interesting. "R" also said to start my Progesterone on Tuesday and come back for blood work on Friday. Whew! That is a lot to remember! I have it all on my calender. So, that means I should be testing in 2 weeks! Wow. This is totally awesome. Wish me luck!

So, today after the appointment I went Hanukkah shopping with DH for our nieces. We got some neat stuff that I hope they like. Then we went to the beach. Yeah, it's only 75 degrees out but we went to the beach anyways. It was a lot of fun and the girls really liked it. I enjoyed watching them play and all I could think about is how I hope next year at this time we have a 3 month old baby to take with us. Tonight we are going out to dinner at Red Lobster. Yum. Tomorrow we are off to the Children's Museum. I am really excited to go there! I hope the girls enjoy it as much I do. I have only ever been there a few times and I will be taking my kids there someday.
Here is the website if you are interested:
http://www.miamichildrensmuseum.org/

Well, that is all for now. Talk at you later.. I have to go make a baby now! LOL. Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Vacation Rocks!

2008-11-26T09:21:00.002-05:00

So, I am off work from today until Monday! It's so awesome. I saw the family yesterday and got to help my SIL put the girls down for the night. I love doing that. They look soo angelic laying there about to fall asleep. Tonight I am baby-sitting them so that their parents can go out to eat and have some adult time. I am not doing this alone. My DH and MIL will be there. It will be fun! Oh, I also got some updated pics of the girls! I have to get them scanned and post them so you all can see "my girls".

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving!!! So exciting! There will be lots of people there and I am excited to see them all. This is our BIG holiday. Hanukkah isn't as big because my nieces are not able to be here to celebrate it with us. I think once DH and I have a kid, then we will make a bigger deal out of it. Right now only the local people get together for Hanukkah.

On the TTC front, 2 more days until we go to see the RE!! My appointment is at 7:30 AM! That is really early to be getting up on vacation! LOL. But, of course, I will do it and I'll be there on time with bells on my toes. I am still extremely hopeful this time around. I just hope to be making the big announcement on or around the New Year!

Well, that is all for now! Happy Thanksgiving to everyone!!! Hope everyone has a wonderful holiday. Talk at you later!

It's Monday...

2008-11-24T20:23:00.003-05:00

So, there is only 3 more days until Thanksgiving and 4 more days until my RE appointment! I am praying for big, healthy follies!! I am really hoping I will be ovulating this weekend. If on Friday, the follies are not big enough we will go back everyday until they are ready to be released. Then the RE will give me a shot to make my body release the eggs. You can guess what happens next! *wink wink* Sometimes, I feel like this is all a big science experiment. hehe. As long as it works and the baby and I are healthy, that is all that matters. DH is starting to get excited about it. I think he is really ready to start our family. It's pretty cool to be at this point in our lives!

In Other News: It's so cool to have the family here. They are still with my FIL and that side of the family. We will see them Tuesday night and for the rest of the week. I got tix to the Children's Museum and I cannot wait to take them all there. My mom and I did a volunteer project there last December and they gave my mom 9 tix and I have been holding onto them ever since. It is so much fun for adults and kids.

So, I found out that my DH's cousin has tix to one of my favorite comedians ever!! Jeff Dunham! That's the ventriloquist/ comedian that has the really funny puppets. I would absolutely LOVE to go to the show! It's on a weeknight but I don't care! I am willing to miss a day of work to see one of my fav comedians! Now I just need to convince DH to buy the tix from his cousin!

Well, that is all for now. I will talk at you all later! Have a great Tuesday!

Day 3

2008-11-20T20:25:00.002-05:00

Well, today is day three of taking the Clomid. Very exciting to think that about 1 week we get to see if there are any follies in my ovaries. The first time I saw the follies I thought "Wow, someday I can tell my kids I saw them when they were just a tiny follie in my ovary. How many moms can say that?! I think that is pretty cool. There is this phenomenon called the "Clomid Crazies". So far, I think I am doing well and I don't think I am acting weird. My dh might tell you otherwise.. hehe. Let's put it this way, I haven't yelled at him unnecessarily. I haven't yelled at him at all lately. I am so hopeful and excited for the days to come. I am trying very hard to stay calm and not freak out and try to tell myself "there is always next cycle". But I won't lie, I really, REALLY want to by pregnant by the end of the year.

In other news, my mom's results came back on her MRI and she does NOT have a torn ACL. Turns out she just has a really bad sprain with some arthritis. Yaaaay Mom! I am so glad nothing is torn or broken. At least we know now that it will only take her a little while to heal as opposed to possibly needing surgery and all that stuff.

So, this year is really going fast! I cannot believe we are coming up on Thanksgiving already! I am so excited! The family will be here on Saturday. We are going to see them on Sunday at the funeral and afterwards. I will try to get some pics on here soon.

Well, that is all for tonight. It time for me to go to bed. Yeah, I go to bed at the same time as the kindergartners! LOL. Hope you all have a great Friday!!!!! yaay! Talk at you all later! =D

Some Good News! (Finally!!)

2008-11-18T20:25:00.003-05:00

Well, I went to my RE today and everything went very well. They did an u/s and some blood work. It turns out that my brain thinks that AF came when really she didn't. My uterine lining and blood work all reflect as if I got a period. It's called a silent period. So, that is pretty awesome! He also said I could start the Clomid tonight!!! Yaaay!! I have already taken the 1st dose! Woohoo! The next step is to start doing ultrasounds in about 10 days to check for egg follicles! Very exciting! The 1st follie check is on 11/28 (the day after Thanksgiving).. I am soooo glad we have finally gotten to this point!

In other news, the funeral for my dh's grandma is on Sunday. My BIL and SIL will be here Saturday night so we are waiting for them so they can attend. It will be interesting to see how everything plays out.

Tomorrow, my mom has her MRI and I am very interested to see what the diagnosis is. She is doing pretty well. She is still limping and wrapping her knee with an ACE bandage. I just hope she won't end up needing surgery.

Well, that is all for now. Talk at you all later. I'll let you know how the MRI goes. Now I just need some healthy follie dust!!

P.S. In case you were wondering, that pic on my profile is me at the age of 8 months. =)

Sad Day....

2008-11-17T19:51:00.002-05:00

The world has lost a wonderful lady today.. My husband's grandma died today from complications of Pneumonia and CHF. She was 89. We knew it was going to happen soon but that still doesn't make it any easier. The funeral is this coming Sunday. She will be terribly missed. The worst part is that she will never get to see our kids. I think that's the part that really gets me.
R.I.P Grandma Bernice.

In TTC news, I called the RE's office and I have an appointment tomorrow morning for blood work. I feel horrible. I am so incredibly bloated, my boobs are huge (not sure what that's all about), weird cramps that feel more like gas pains then anything.... Ugh! I just don't know what to think anymore. So, I'll let you all know what happens tomorrow. I am hoping to get some answers as to why AF hasn't come and what is going on in there.

In other news, my mom is feeling better. Her MRI is on Wednesday and hopefully she will also get answers.. I wrapped her knee in an ACE wrap over the weekend and that seems to be helping. I am not 100% sure it is a torn ACL that she has. I am thinking it is more of a severe strain or something like that. I'm only a nurse. We'll see what the doc says.

Well, that is all for now... hope everyone had a god Monday. I will update tomorrow with what my RE says. Talk at you all later.

P.S. Welcome to all the new followers!!!!

It's Friday!!!

2008-11-14T20:03:00.003-05:00

Happy Friday everyone!!! Hope everyone had a great week. Not much going on around here. My mom tore her ACL (Anterior Cruciate Ligament) also known as a ligament on the side of her knee. She is able to walk on it but not for long distances. She fell in the parking lot at work a few days ago. She walked on it for a few days before she finally went to the doctor! She is so weird sometimes.. I am going to see her tomorrow and see what is going on with her knee.

In TTC news, AF is still not here. I am sick of this already. I called my RE and the Physician's Assistant told me to wait until Monday and if still nothing then to call back. What a bitch! She has very bad bedside manner. Very rude! So, I'll keep you posted when and if AF ever decides to show up.

Work is going well. I have been working where I am at for about 4 1/2 months. I am at the Employee Health Department. It's like a doctor's office only it's for the employees of the hospital. The ladies there are really nice and fun to hang out with. I am temporary right now and I hope they will bring me on permanent soon. We see lots of injuries and some of these people manage to hurt themselves doing the weirdest things! Makes the day interesting to say the least..

Well, that is all for now. I will keep you updated on what's going on over the weekend. I would like to put pics on here so as soon as I figure out how to do that I will! Talk at you all later!!

Waiting Sucks!

2008-11-09T08:55:00.002-05:00

Well, still no sign of AF! Unfortunately, I have to wait 1 more week before I can call my RE. I am ready to scream!! Everywhere I turn there are either babies or pregnant ladies. I am very excited for my friends who are expecting, it's just kind of rough.. All I think about when I am around pregnant ladies or babies is how I should be about 16 weeks pregnant with my little one. And how unfair life can be sometimes. I know I will get pregnant again and I know this all just takes time. It just plain hurts. I never thought that 2 months later I would still be feeling this way and still be waiting. I don't know what I expected to happen. I guess I thought I would just start over again as soon as the bleeding from the m/c stopped. I wanted so much to be pregnant at Thanksgiving. At this point if I am I may not even know it much less be ready to announce it. Life doesn't always go as planned...

Sorry to be such a downer today. Lots of thoughts are swirling around in my head, not to mention lots of emotions. Sadness, frustration, happiness because I will get to see my out of town family soon, anxiousness, the list goes on. I think a lot of this has to do with the holidays coming up. I just pray this year is a happy year for everyone!!

In other news, my cat has been making me crazy lately! he has this thing he does where he just starts crying and banging on the bedroom door. Not cool when you're trying to sleep! He has been doing this for the past few nights. This morning I fed him and he still cried his little eyes out.. I finally just let him in the bedroom. He jumps on the bed and goes right to sleep! That little bugger! LOL. He usually only cries like that when he's hungry. I think he missed us because we were gone all day yesterday. Now he is asleep on the couch as I type this... Gotta love him!

Well kids, that's all for now. Hope everyone has a great rest of your weekend. Talk at you later! =)

A New President

2008-11-05T17:13:00.002-05:00

As you all know, we have a new president!! For those who have been living under a rock with no internet access, it is Barack Obama! It is amazing to see history being made. It is awesome to think that my kids will be reading about this in school and I lived it! It is so wonderful that all the kids being born in this generation no matter race or creed will grow up knowing they can truly be whatever they want to be including being president of the USA!! Now we just need a female president.. Wouldn't that be so awesome!?

On the TTC front, I am still waiting on AF. I started getting cramps yesterday and today they are getting a little worse. I am hoping this is the beginning of AF.

In other news, it looks like there is a hurricane on the way sometime next week.. I am hoping it goes away and does not come here. I am not in the mood to deal with no electricity or clean water for a week. Boo. I'll keep you posted.

Well, that is all for tonight. Congrats to our new president! Talk at you all later! Hope everyone has a great night!

Very exciting!!

2008-11-03T18:31:00.002-05:00

Well, halloween has come and gone. We got twice as many kids this year as we did last year for a grand total of 2! Where are these kids going?? My neighborhood is full of them! My next door neighbor has 2 little girls and they didn't even come by..

The reason I am so excited is that tomorrow is Election Day!!!! Hope everyone votes tomorrow if you haven't already. I am also so very sick of hearing all the attack ads for both candidates. I am ready for this political season to be over!

On the TTC front, I am on my last day of Prometrium and hoping AF comes soon. This Prometrium is really doing a number to my emotions. I was watching Dirty Dancing the other night and I started crying!! WTH?! I have seen that movie a million times and never cried before. LOL. I am also being very short with DH whether he deserves it or not.. Poor guy. I am just praying for success this coming cycle. I am hoping to be finding out the good news around the beginning of December.. The holidays will have so much more meaning this year if we are successful! BTW, this cycle was annovulatory.. Boo. I kind of expected it though.

Well, that is all for tonight. Talk at you all tomorrow. Hope everyone has a great day tomorrow. Remember, go vote!! =D

It's Thursday!

2008-10-30T19:07:00.004-04:00

Yaaay! As you all know tomorrow is Halloween. I am very excited to see if we get any kids coming over for candy. We bought a little bag of chocolates because last year we only got one kid! It was kind of sad... DH and I ended up eating the candy ourselves. So, I am hoping for a better turn out this year. So, does anyone have any rituals they do for Halloween? I used to dress up even if I was not going to a party but not anymore. Too much hassle especially when I have to work during the day. I do have a witch's hat that I will wear while passing out the candy. Now, where did I put that hat......

Also, this weekend is Fall Forward for all the clocks. I love that. It's like getting an extra hour of sleep! Yaay! The weather here in South Florida is getting chilly. The past few nights it was in the 40s and 50s overnight.. Burrrr! I know the people from up north are LOLing at me right now! Well, it was windy too! LOL. I have this super cute long sleeve shirt with little penguins and snowflakes on it that I bought last weekend. I was hoping to wear it this weekend but it is starting to warm up again.. Boo. I swear I am living in the wrong state! I would love to live up north where the seasons change and the weather wasn't so dang humid!

Well, that is all for tonight. Hope everyone has a Happy Halloween tomorrow!

There has to be a reason for all this....

2008-10-28T19:22:00.003-04:00

There just has to!! So, I went to the RE this morning for yet another beta. Well, the physician assistant calls me back this afternoon to tell me that my beta is at 7!!! It is supposed to be less than 5. So, this means I can't start the Clomid this cycle after all. The RE put me on Prometrium to bring on AF. Once AF starts, I can start the Clomid on day 5. I am beyond frustrated at my body and at everything that has transpired in the last month and a half. I am just praying that everything works out this next cycle. I am trying to think positive and know that this is all happening for a reason.

In other news, I am so excited that Thanksgiving is almost here! I cannot wait to see my nieces, SIL and BIL. Also all the cousins!! It will be so much fun! I was hoping to be announcing that we were expecting but that isn't going to happen. Maybe Hannukah (Dec.20).... We will see.. Well, that is all for now. Hope everyone is having a good week. Talk at you later.

Weird Dreams

2008-10-23T19:18:00.003-04:00

So lately I have been having weird dreams! Last night I had a dream that I was at my college graduation ceremony. When I got to my seat there was a letter from my grandma who had passed away. I started crying. The people around me kept asking what was wrong. I opened the letter and there was this long letter from her about how proud she was and how she was so excited to see me get this achievement. I just kept saying "But she died." Then my grandpa comes over and starts yelling at me about she's not dead. (A little history, both of my grandparents died when I was in high school.) Like I said, it was weird.. The fact that both of them were in the dream was even weirder. I haven't had a dream about them in a long time. Anyone know what it means??
On the TTC front, my beta on Monday was 21!! WTF?? I was totally expecting them to say "OK, it's down to zero. Start your Clomid!" I was really pissed when they said it was 21 and that I had to go back AGAIN for another check!! Aaaaah! This is torture! I am starting to think this will never end!!
Tomorrow night dh and I will be going to a Florida Panthers hockey game!! We haven't gone since like 2000! This should be interesting. GO PANTHERS!
Well, that is all for now. Talk at you all later! =)

Happy Birthday to Me!

2008-10-18T09:37:00.003-04:00

Yaaay! Today it's my b-day today!! I am very excited! Although it hit me that in exactly 3 years I'll be 30!! Aaaah! LOL. Today my mom is taking my out so this will be interesting. last night my husband took me to Melting Pot and it was excellent! More delicious than I remember! Then this AM, I woke to a card sitting on my nightstand from dh. It was really cute. He got me a giftcard to Khols! Guess where I'm going today!? haha.
In other news, DH is getting a lot better. I am still changing his dressing every night but the abscess is healing very well. We also made our plans and bought the tickets for a triop we are taking at the beginning of 2009! We are going to see my BIL, SIL and our neices. I love going to visit them!! We will see them at Thanksgiving too. Woohoo!
On the TTC front, I am going back to the RE on Monday for another beta check and hopefully I'll get the green light to start this Clomid already!! I keep thinking about the script in my purse and praying it will still work this late in my cycle. My RE seems to think so.. Monday will be CD 17!

Well that is all for now! I'll keep you posted. Hope everyone has a Wonderful weekend!

61

2008-10-14T19:46:00.002-04:00

That is my beta. I went to my RE to have my bloodwork and betas done on Monday and they told me it was 61. So that means I have to wait one more week to start my Clomid.. I just hope and pray it works this late in my cycle. My RE seems optimistic that it will. I am trying to stay optimistic. In other news, my b-day is in 4 days!! Yaay! LOL. Dh is taking me to Melting Pot!! Yummmmy! I LOVE that place. We only go like once a year or so because it's so expensive. Well, that's all for now. Hope everyone is enjoying their week.. Talk at you later. =)

It's Friday!!!!!

2008-10-10T21:48:00.002-04:00

Yaaay! I love the weekends! haha. This weekend is a 3 day weekend. How awesome is that?! Not much else to really talk about. I am so ready for AF to be done! I am thinking it will be gone tomorrow or Sunday.
DH is getting better. He's still in pain every now and then but hopefully I can get him all better in time for baby-making! LOL. I'm kidding. I just hope he gets better soon. I just hate to see him in so much pain!
I have to figure out how to pimp this blog out! haha! If anyone can give me some tips on how to get a cool background, please let me know! Thanks!

Well, that is all for now. Like I said, not much to talk about. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Lots to talk about...

2008-10-09T13:15:00.000-04:00

Well, I went to the RE on Tuesday and they did the U/S. Turns out the sac is gone. All that is left is placental tissue. That's a good thing. Hopefully that means AF will be gone soon and we will be TTC again. He didn't give me the script for Clomid as I had hoped. What he did say is that he wants to wait for my Betas to go back to negative. On Tuesday they were 248. So, I go back to the RE on Monday for another check of my betas. Things are moving along! Yaay!

On the next interesting thing. **Disclaimer** This is a little gross.
So, I'm trying to type this blog on Tuesday night when I hear my husband yelling for me to "Quick! Come look at this thing!!" I go running up there to see him standing there pointing at this huge pimple looking thing. The medical name for it is an abscess. Lovely. So, I decide we need to go to the urgent care center because the abscess is huge and the skin around it is red and hot. My first thought, infection!! So, we go and I tell him on the way not to worry, that they will numb it up before they cut it open. Well, we get there and the doc rips the band aid off and it pops right there. No pain meds, no numbing medicine, NOTHING! She just starts squeezing everything out of it. I have never seen him in so much pain in my whole life!! He was trying so hard not to scream or cry. Poor guy, he's now traumatized. =( Good news is they gave him antibiotics and pain meds. He is starting to feel better. What a day!
We go back tonight to make sure it is healing well and for them to change the dressing. This will be interesting. I told him to take some pain meds before we go.

To my fellow Jews out there, Happy New Year!

Well, that is all for now. See you all later. =)

What a Day!

2008-10-06T17:28:00.000-04:00

OMG, I have never had such a crazy busy day like today! Work was insane! I saw like 14 patients just this morning! I usually only see about 6-7. Tomorrow should be much calmer..

So, I talked to my RE and he wants to see me tomorrow AM for an u/s. It's twofold. He wants to make sure everything has come out and wants to make sure my ovaries are ok too. If all goes well, I should be getting my script for Clomid! Yaaay!! I am soo glad to finally be back on track. This morning my temp took a huge nosedive! It went from 98.4 to 97.6!! Whoa! That's never happened to me before. I am thinking it was my hormones starting to regulate themselves. Before I got pregnant, my temps were in the 97s and after my BFP they were in the 98s. So, I guess I'm on my way back to normal.. We'll see. =)

Well, that is all for now... I'll let you all know how the U/S goes tomorrow.

Monday is coming...

2008-10-05T17:45:00.000-04:00

Yuck! I hate Mondays. Good news is that I started bleeding on Friday!! Yaaay! No d&c for me after all! So now I am on CD 2. I am so happy this happened naturally. Now we can start focusing on moving forward and trying to get pregnant again. I must say the cramps are HORRIBLE!! The most painful I have ever experienced in my life!
Tomorrow I will be calling my RE and my GYN to tell them the good news. I cannot wait to get started on the Clomid and get this party started!! LOL.
So, my birthday is coming up! I am actually excited about this.. I love my b-day. It's my own personal holiday. Unfortunately it falls on a Saturday so I don't think I will be taking a day off. I already have Saturdays off... Oh well.
So I have this weird need to decorate for the upcoming holidays. Don't ask me why.. I never wanted to do this before. I went today to Kohl's and bought a very cute ceramic pumpkin that you put a tea light in. I think I will be going back for more stuff later. I just feel the need to get into the holiday spirit starting with Halloween... Haha!

Well, that is all for now. I will let you know what the docs say. Check back later in the week. =D

My first post...

2008-09-24T19:52:00.000-04:00

Well, here I am blogging! Very interesting..Let me tell you a little about myself. My name is Erica and I live in Florida. I have been married to a wonderful man for almost 2 years. We are currently trying to have a baby. Unfortunately we had a miscarriage about 2 weeks ago. I am waiting to have a D&C. After which we are going to try again. I am just happy to know that I can get pregnant which means I WILL get pregnant again!
In other news, tomorrow is Thursday which means we are one day closer to Friday!!! My favorite day of the week!
That is all for now. I will keep you posted on what's going on in my life.. This should be interesting! =D