Monday, May 25, 2009

And So We Wait.....

Lots has happened in the past 2 weeks since my last blog. So, I took the injectables (Follistim, to be exact). It worked VERY well. I ended up with like 3 HUGE follies measuring 18mm,20mm and 17mm!! I told you they were huge. So I took my trigger shot to help me ovulate and we then did 2 IUIs back to back. I am currently in the 2 week wait and still very hopeful this will work! We will find out on 6/8/09. Woohoo! I am excited! One thing that I find very odd is that I am starting to get phantom symptoms.. My boobs are KILLING me. Now I know that it is waaaaay too early for me to be feeling symptoms but this I cannot ignore. They HURT!! My mom says it's the triplets. Haha! Very funny mom! I guess we will just have to tough it out the next 2 weeks to find out if I am crazy or pregnant..Maybe I'm both! LOL.

In other news, next Saturday (the 30th) is out House warming party. I am getting excited about that. All of DH's local family are coming and so are a few of our friends. It's crazy trying to get the house looking nice, remembering what food to serve, do we have enough? Did we remember the beverages? Should we serve coffee? Is there anything we are forgetting? Where should we put the cat during all this? Will he be ok? Oy! Lots to think about and not a lot of time to figure it out in. I just want everything to go smoothly. I am not very good at throwing parties because we didn't throw many parties when I was a kid. The only ones I can remember are my birthday parties and an occasional holiday party. Otherwise it was just my mom and I celebrating whatever holiday it was.. So, I am enlisting the help of my MIL to help me remember everything and make sure I am doing things correctly. I will be putting pics up after the party! (Woohoo! Finally some house pics!!)

Well, that is all for now. Happy Memorial Day! Hope everyone has a great day!

Friday, May 8, 2009

Injectables and other things...

So, we went the doc yesterday and according to him it is time to move to injectables. So, I start them tomorrow evening. yikes! He also said that the reason for the m/c's was because of inadequate egg ripening that lead to chromosomal abnormalities when the egg was fertilized. I was taking Clomid and he said that it was harder to really monitor the growth of the follicles with the Clomid because you cannot adjust the dose. Well, with the Follistim he can monitor me much closer and adjust my dose if needed. I go back Monday, Wednesday and Friday to check the follies and have blood work to check my estrogen levels. Talk about a science experiment! LOL. They gave me all this info on how to use the pen-thingy that the medicine comes in.. I feel like I am back in Nursing school! It's a whole big process to load the pen and dial up the right dosage. I am going to have to watch the dvd a few times before I actually do this. I am used to just drawing up medicine from a bottle with a syringe. This pen thingy look a little odd. This should be interesting!

In other news, this Sunday is Mother's Day. Happy Mother's Day to all the mommies out there. I WILL be joining the celebration next year! This year as with previous years, we are going to DH's aunt's house for a yummy brunch. I cannot wait!! It will be a lot of fun.

Well, that is all for now. Hope everyone has an awesome weekend! Talk at you all later!

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Bad news.

Let me start from the beginning... I went for beta #1 on Wednesday and it was at 53. So, I went for beta #2 yesterday and they called me and said it was 2. It should have been around 300. They also said to come back this AM for another beta to make sure that yesterday's wasn't a mistake or something. I did and it was at 1. So, needless to say, we lost the baby. I cannot believe this is happening to us again!!! We were soo excited and I was soooo hopeful that this pregnancy would be different. Why, God? Why are you doing this to us??? All I have ever wanted in the whole world was to be a mom. Now I have 2 angel babies. This is NOT fair! I feel like such a failure. Failure as a mom, as a wife, as a woman. Don't get me wrong.. My husband has been wonderful throughout all this. If he thought for one second I felt this way it would tear him up inside.. But I just feel like everyone else's wives get pregnant and have babies and his can't. Life is NOT fair!
Ok, pity party is over.

So what's next? Well, we have an appointment to see the RE on Tuesday to discuss what happened, why he thinks it happened and what our next step is. Injectables. Oy! I guess I'll have to suck it up and just do it. If it results in a pregnancy that goes full term, then I am all for it! Third time's a charm, right?

Thanks for reading this far down. Hope everyone has a great day tomorrow. Talk at you all later!